Francisco Goya
(e.g., Los Desastres de la Guerra –
No. 62 (Las camas
de la muerte))
His
master’s voice
“how
are you feeling?”
how
am I feeling?
how
do I feel I am feeling?
how
do you feel I feel I am feeling?
how
do I feel I feel I am feeling?
how
do I feel you feel I feel I am feeling?
(permutations
(these are not) not perambulations (these they are) not permissions (?) past
there (here))
a
r e x
d
o y
f
e e l x
f
e e l i n g x
h
o w x
I
x
y
o u y
xbothers
me more
ybothers
me less
earlier
felt
unstableprecariouslonelynostalgicnauseousrestlesssadheavyfrustratedannoyedgratefultiredunsatisifedaloneselfdeceptivestupidinundatedneedytrappedfoolishparadoxicalfragmenteddespondent
now
bothered
later
will a needley in my skin spin&sing&spring 78 per memoryx [Victrola w/
a V > w/o victory]
I
/ ? [superfusing suicidal ideation] (? 2019 – idiopathic now)
太宰 治 / Osamu Dazai [No
Longer Human] (June 1909 – June 1948)
Charlotte
Perkins Gilman / Charlotte Perkins Stetson [The Yellow Wallpaper] (July 1860 -
August 1935)
Édouard
Levé [Autoportrait [Suicide [Works]]] (January 1965 – October 2007)
John
O'Brien [Stripper Lessons] (May 1960 – April 1994)
David
Foster Wallace [Oblivion] (February 1962 - September 2008)
Synthroid®
/ levothyroxine sodium [0.025mg] (January 2020 – lethargic now)
Vyvanse®/
lisdexamfetamine dimesylate [40mg] (April 2020 – vitriolic now)
EMSAM®
/ selegiline [12mg/24h [9mg/24h [6mg/24h]]] (March 2020 – serac now)
Lithium
carbonate [600mg [300mg]] (June 2019 – limacine/March 2020)
Tegretol®
/ carbamazepine [200mg] (January 2020 – Carthaginian/March 2020)
Risperdal®
/ risperidone [0.5mg] (August 2019 – reptant/November 2019)
Adderall®
/ d-amphetamine salt combo / dextroamphetamine-amphetamine [10mg] (January 2019
– addlepated/September 2019)
Luvox®
/ fluvoxamine [100mg] (May 2019 – flummoxed/June 2019)
Effexor®
/ venlafaxine ER [100mg [75mg]] (? – veneficial/April 2019)
Untitled (/Have
you thought of suicide?)
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Risperidone
GotelFyreVoSeMshy
no
so
obviously
Embracing
excess...
Really
meaty
yes,
living
even
shining,
ignorant
fearlessly
Voilà!
generated
inappropriate
yours,
holistically
diet,
esteem
reality,
or
off.
routine,
poor
this
exercise
surmising
Prcpttd
Prcpc
m
pssnt
pn prsss!
pls
prcv
plltv
pls --
prstrt
pryr prtkng,
plnt
pprbck prsng,
pcfl
pn plyng,
Pphn
prngrph –
pls
prvdnc
pllt
pyrxcl
m
—Connor
Orrico
